cIownshark

halloween

im sick but im trying to ram through some qp and arcade to get as many lootboxes as i can
i still havent gotten all the halloween stuff and yet im already getting fucking duplicates and im pissed off about that, but either way im sick and dying and need people to group with to get exp faster. so if anyone is willing to im Joker#19837
im lvl 168 and i main junkrat but i also play a lot of soldier, reaper, and mercy. im willing to honestly play anything thats needed i just want lootboxes

sorry i havent been on lately. not very active and schools a thing. im tired and getting high to try and help with the ptsd related breakdown that wont seem to stop lingering. i hate everything and i feel like shit i jsut wanna crawl under the floor and stay there 

i'm not gonna be on this site a whole lot longer. i've moved accounts, and im happier there (seeing as how atleast 500 of my watchers here have completely fell off the face of the earth lol).
while having very little watchers can be really nice and stress relieving, i'm still going to want what almost every artist wants: attention. i'm always going to want more watchers and to get better, but this just isn't going to happen. i'm not going to gain 500+ watchers back, it took me four years to get 500+ watchers. i just don't think i want to spend years slowly working my way up again.
what i'm saying here is that sooner than later, i'm not going to be logging in anymore. i'll come on occasionally, and surely post things when i get the chance to, but either not that much or almost not at all. ive had about enough of this website.
i'm engaged, i have a life outside of the internet, and i wanna fucking live it. i dont wanna waste away on a website that's brought me so much bad and not as much good. this site is hell and i'm just about tired of putting up with it.
i'm not going to let myself turn into the 'average millennial', i don't actually enjoy spending so much time on the internet. the only reason im here so much is because i currently dont have anything better to do, but thats not always gonna be the case.
the internet is cool, but its nothing compared to real life. i can google a lizard and thats cool and all, but what about going out and holding a lizard?
take some advice from me this one time: don't waste your life. the internet is a great place to be when there's nowhere else, but it's not a healthy place to live.

edit: nvm i got one i think